THREES


I had some good dreams last night. 
Majic Puppies by Pending-Destruction
In one I had a gift of 3 black dogs. They were puppies, glossy black, eyes barely open, tongues still soft. They seemed to be a kind of Labrador retriever and poodle mix, which I think might make a good pet, cause poodles are know for their smartness and labs for their enthusiasm and devotion. The other thing is  black dogs are the symbol of depression. As seen on the tarot cards or, Dennis informs me, English myth. 

The next dream was at the Ivy street house. It was in the living room and we had a dining table set in front of the T.V. The boys were sitting up on high stools and I was sitting very low to the ground. Everything and everyone was far above me. As I observed this a professor I know stood behind my shoulder and observed too. He said, "I guess you know what this means". And I did. I guess I am not sitting up at the same table as the rest of the members of the family. In my mind my place is too low. I need to get up and sit at the table proper.

Then there was a knock at the door. A man was waiting. "You haven't returned my Zimmerman CD!" I was so ashamed and guilty. Come in I said I will get it for you. I searched frantically through the different cluttered areas in the house but all I could find were Bob Dylan CDs. That professor said, "You know what that means." But I didn't. Until I woke up and remembered that Bob Dylan was not his real name, his real name is Robert Allen Zimmerman.

So then the professor physically restrains me and says comforting things and asks me to stop. I am like what are you talking about, and I am feeling frantic to get going and get everything done. He says you are laughing and crying at the same time. I see he is right and that he is terribly afraid and doesn't understand at all. 

 I try to comfort him. I say, "I am not Sou Cheng". (Sou Cheng was hospitalized for depression last month after flipping out at school with paranoid delusions. She is in a half way house and this professor has been visiting her and worrying about her a lot. He seems to have NO CLUE about depression and seemingly never experienced it. I was wonderfully impressed by a life so untouched by depression.)

So all in all a Depressing dream, but also really intense and lively and metaphorical. Which seems to be the button pressed in my brain recently.

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