Feeling Crowded and Needing Time Alone

Last night I dreamt my sister and I were at the Tyler Mall trying to find someplace to eat. It was so crowded. People were shoulder to shoulder walking through the hallways. I was looking for someplace nice to eat that didn't have too many customers.

I found such a place, all fresh raw foods and the counters and lights were cool neon glowings. The seating was bar stools at the counters and it was only half full. I turned to find my sister and she wasn't there. She had been there a minute ago but now there was no sign of her in the big crowd.

I ran back down the spiraling hallway searching through the crowds. But there were so many people. Pushing, shoving and taking up the air. I searched and searched, I went up one fork or another and each time I went one way or another I knew I was either closer to finding her or much much further away.

Finally I paused on a landing in the open air. There was some sky above and a wall to my back and I felt a little calm. I tried to get my cell phone out so I could text my sister and fix a place to meet up.

But as I was trying to enter the number some women came out onto the landing and walked over to where I was a stood in front of me. Very close in front of me. So close that I couldn't read my cell phone screen because the woman in front of me was pressing up against the cellphone and forcing it back into my face.

I erupted in anger and gave her a fierce shove. She turned around indignant and her friends were shocked and angry too. I wasn't having any of it. I was full of rage and would not back down. They left.

I ran around all night and in the morning I gave up and headed back to my hotel. The room we were in was beyond the lobby and that was the only access that I knew of. So I entered the lobby. The access to the rooms was blocked off and wouldn't open again for 10 minutes. I was frantic to get to my room and take a shower and sleep. I couldn't wait 10 minutes. It seemed an incredibly unacceptable delay so I tried to climb over the barricade. Bookcases, chairs and tables were in the way and I tried to pull myself up and over them but couldn't make it through.

The clerk asked me what I was doing. I wept and wailed I needed to get to my room but there was so much in the way. The clerk asked if I couldn't wait the 3 remaining minutes and they would let me go through the gate. No! I needed to go now.

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