Feeding the Baby

I was waiting for the bus on Brockton Avenue in Riverside (in a dream). I knew I needed to get to my old high school, Poly, but I didn't know which bus line to take. I was trying to look up the information on my iPod but not getting anywhere with the slow interface. I was talking to three girls who were also waiting for the bus. They were slightly intimidating and talking tough. One of them told me she went to Lincoln Continuation High School where all the delinquents are sent. I'm like, "so did I!" They were amazed because I was a nicely dressed older white lady but we talked some more and I tried to explain how I left high school without a degree but later spent years in community college making up for lost time before finally graduating from U.C.R. with a degree in math. The bus came and I let everyone else get on before me. The driver looked at me and I asked does this bus go near Poly? She said, "Yeah, get on." So I went up the first two steps an...

  © Marie-Lan Nguyen / Wikimedia Commons This file is licensed under the Creative Commons Attribution 3.0 Unported license. I dreamed that I moved into a new condo. I was coming home to the new condo after a very long tiring day and as I walked up the stairs to my new place i kept seeing signs on walls. The signs identified each cluster of condos by a theme. For example there was a group of ritzy condos. My group was artistic and we had white flower petals scattered on the carpeted stairs leading up to the shared kitchen. In this condo you had a bedroom and then all the rest of the space, including showers, kitchen, dining rooms, were shared spaces. I walked into the kitchen and it was crowded. There were many people I didn't know and they all seemed to want to talk to me, but I just wanted to be alone. I walked through and went towards my room. There was a woman coming out of the door. It was Anna and she was being stealthy and turning the key. I confronted her, "...

It was so cold today!  I  was walking into work trying to image that this was how it was going to be every day if the ozone layer disappeared and the heat fell away from the earth. Cold and lifeless. Where did all the birds go? There were so many on Friday and today it's silent. I   dreamed  last night that we were sleeping in our car on a little hill that led down to the beach. We were right in front of our house but still sleeping in our car.  I  woke up first and looked down the hill into the ocean. It was gray and strange. The ocean rose up and started surging up the hill. Just high tide! Not a tsunami. Then there was a boat coming toward shore and landing followed by a man on a horse wearing an orange safety vest and nothing else. Then a parade of people is coming up out of the ocean including dwarves on jet skis.  I 'm thinking it's freezing so why are they in the water? Dennis and  I  go inside and it's warm and cosy.  I ...

So  I   dreamed  about Grandma's house on Ivy street last night. Dennis and  I  were spending the night there.  You know none of the family have lived there in a while but we stopped in to make sure all was well.  In the morning  i  went up on the hill to the swimming pool (!!) and there was a boy sitting there on a bench.  I  thought oh  I 'll go cause  I  don't really want to be around people right now, but then  I  thought what is he doing at my pool.  I  yelled at him and told him to leave and he was like, "this isn't your house."  I  charge back into the house and find a family of 4 koreans living in the room where  I  had the mumps. They were asleep and  I  started screaming at them to get out. They woke up confused and  said, "this isn't your house."  I 'm totally going nuts and telling them  I  lived here when  I  was 8 and...

I dreamt that I lived in a big old house far out in the country with green fields across the street, neighbors on either side, and a river behind. What a great house! We were renting it and Andrew found it for us. There were so many things going on in the  dream  and it didn't really hold together as a narrative but some high points were the central courtyard, the costume shop for playing dress up, the shrine in the back with sticks of drugs to light and smoke, what were those sticks? They were a clear material very slender, like a splinter and you lit them and inhaled the smoke? The Shrine was like a dresser top with pictures, little offering plates, doilies, and ash. I think it came as a kit from a very posh and arty boutique. The neighbors were trashy and the person who built the house made it so the house turned its back on the trashy neighbors. We came home at night and sat in the parlor with our backs to the trashy neighbors and made polite conversation with the little...

In my  dream  we were at this crappy little renaissance fair located in a big building on a beach. The fair was less than stellar and we were wandering around in a confusion of indecision and silly wonderings like where are our shoes, are these our shoes, should we wear our shoes? Ect. Then we saw that the best part of the fair was on an island in the bay and the boat was coming in to the pier that extended from the building. We gave up on shoes and lined up at the door to ride the boat to the island. It looked dark and stormy and then the sun came up and the guard announced that it was morning and there were no more trips planned to the island. We missed the boat!

I was having this  dream  about Grandma's house and in it we were all rained in for a time and when we came out we found beautiful blue ocean water lapping at the base of the hill and filling in big pools of water. Imagine the freeway and railroad tracks all the way underwater and Grandma's house a beautiful island. We had to dive into the water and swim to get around to the front of the house. The neighbors came by in boats and we had a store set up and they were buying food and supplies from us.  Let's do that instead of what we are doing now, o.k.?

Boyz are boyz I reckon.    They just come and go    I love the transition I dreamt of water last night a giant sleeping snail water up the stairs. A house somehow and the sea the waves and a family frolicking. Marcia just wants everyone to relax and enjoy not worry about being civilized

Last night I dreamt that I was in my Grandmother's bedroom on Ivy Street. It was dim in the room, as usual, and suddenly a woman ran into the room around the bed and behind me into Grandma's bathroom screaming, "He's trying to kill me!" I went out into the hallway of Grandmother's house and just by the bathroom was a very tall man with a cleaver/butcher's knife held up in the air screaming he was going to kill her. I told him, I called the police (though I hadn't) and started to walk towards him. He was furious and threatening me with the knife I kept walking forward and basically forced him down the hallway and into the kitchen of Judy's house on Rumsey and then the angry man was Claude and I could feel the knife cutting into my head as he kept placing it on my upper right side. I can still feel like a line across my scalp where it was cutting.  I kept forcing him toward the door while telling him I wanted to live and that I love life. Which ...

I dreamt that I had been killing people regularly, we all were, but lately everyone was getting lazy about disposing of the bodies. We had dead bodies in the walkin refrigerator, under the bed, and in a dresser drawer. I was very worried about the smell and what the neighbors would think.

I dreamt that I was at a dance studio talking to the owner about classes and property lines and I got dizzy and had to lie down on the bed in the studio. The dance teacher was talking to someone else about digging up the bodies and property lines. And they both got in the bed and we took off down the freeway. then they were the Human Resources people from Stanford and suddenly they told me I had to get off the bed (we had been talking about Parviz's bad drving and how he really ground the gears which I knew was true from an earlier  dream  when he was driving a school bus) they started pushing me out of the bed and I was like no not here I'll get bad road rash from the freeway. So they stopped at a roadside restaurant and I asked to borrow a phone. The first phone was a clam shell cell phone and it was losing power so I looked around and finally spotted a rotary phone. I dialed dennis to ask him to pick me up and then I woke up and his cell phone was ringing. It was the alarm ...

I read a story in the NY Times called dogs are people too. It made me think of you.  They trained dogs to be still in an MRI then they show them things or let them smell things and watch their brains light up. Long story short the day when we look back on how we treated animals with shame and guilt is coming.  I predict it. Then last night I had the nicest  dream . I was walking back into a building and a wet golden retriever followed close on my heels. Then he gently but firmly made me sit down so he could get in my lap and be petted. So sweet and persistent, he was very wet and maybe homeless. His teeth didn't look good but after a good pet he was relaxed and grinning. So was I.

I dreamed it was night and I was trying to make my way home on foot. I was at the place where Monterey Drive intersected Ivy street, a place I went to frequently as a child growing up. The intersection was covered with branches and bushes growing out over the street and there was a lot of traffic going fast. I wanted to cross the street to visit Grandma on the hill but I was scared I'd be hit by a car. I kept watching the headlights appear suddenly within a few feet then zoom past. It was a real white knuckle situation but somehow I made it. I walked to the driveway only to discover someone had built a bike store at the foot of the driveway. I thought what a great idea. Grandma will like this. I went up to her house and opened the door. Inside was the kitchen and I knew at once something was bad. The kitchen was full of dead goldfish and koi. Inside tanks where the water had dried up or on the floor. It smelled fishy and Grandma's bedroom door was closed. I called and call...

I had a terrible nightmare . I went to a party with little Robbie and Andrew. They were about 2 and 3. There was a little building in the yard where you could drop your children off while you were at the party. Great I think. I hand them over and think it's a little sinister that they won't let me see inside the building AND they give me a pair of keys to use to collect them later, but the party calls.  Not unexpectedly the party was great but I felt isolated and uninvolved so I was ready to go. I got in line to pick up the boys. I handed them the keys and they put their upper body into the door of the little building. Only then do I notice that the building is very thin, like about 1 foot wide.  They are taking so long and I'm getting worried. I can see the red headed ladies skull and hair peeking out the back of the thin building and that worries me too.  Finally they come to me, three of them, and say that usually this doesn't happen when they place c...

Last night I dreamed that Dennis and I were driving around with the children and stopping to rest and eat at the houses we used to live in. They weren't our houses anymore, but we would go in like we owned them and clean up, then fix some food and leave. Sometimes the current owners came home while we were there. I would be really nervous and trying to make myself small and invisible, but these people didn't seem to care. The houses were all a mess. I was making candy at the Alger house, boiling sugar and water, mixing in nuts and I needed a dish to pour it into. I walked around looking at everything, the cupboards were filthy and things in them made no sense. And there were no bowls. I was considering a thrown away container of some kind when we had to leave. In one house, a sort of apartment on the second floor, I was particularly nervous, but Dennis pooh poohed my fears. We were making dinner and cleaning and the owner came home. He was a little disturbed. ...

Funny Dream last night. I was visiting my father's house! He lived in Riverside next to a farm where there were milk cows. It was a dump, of course. He seemed like a Vietnam vet who was so shell shocked he couldn't really live life happily anymore. Dennis and I and you and others were staying with him. There was a party at one point and then I discovered in the kitchen that there was magic milk. The milk never spoiled and there were milk based desserts all over the kitchen that were still perfect after 50 years! Creme brulee, flan, all these white and gold desserts. Then I knew I could cook any of them perfectly because of the perfect milk. The perfect milk came from pipes and machines and things on the walls. Like if you were in the basement of a big old building and there were pipes crisscrossing along the ceiling and walls, that's how it was. The pipes were painted white and I could make out old time designs on the containers hanging on the walls. L...

I dreamed that I was at Ivy street. It was night and me, Chris, Marcia and Mom were in the living room/dining room. It was dark outside and warm and safe inside. Mom was cutting out a pattern for a red dress on the dining room table. Me, Chris, and Marcia were talking and watching t.v. Suddenly I remember. "Mom," I shout, "why are we at Grandma's house? You don't live here you live on Rumsey." "Well," she said, "you were talking about it so much and no one was living here so I just moved in." "Oh no! Mom you can't do that!" She goes on cutting and I'm running through the kitchen door out to the steps down to the driveway. Lo and behold a moving van and many cars. There are people waiting to move in. I rush to them pleading, "It's just that my grandfather built this house with his own hands. And I dream about it all the time so my mom decided we should move in. I'll get everything out of here, don...

 I had a dream last night. I was moving in to a new office. There were two new offices and the other one was claimed first. It was bright, sunny and clean. I found the second office was for me. It was dark, cluttered and had windows into other offices that people could peer through. I went in to the office and there was a person sitting in the desk next to mine. They were too close and they acted like they were in charge. I pushed their desk back and set mine up. I opened curtains and brought in light. I found there were clothes on the walls, pinned up. My current boss pulled down one and said oh look a Victorian corset. I looked at it and saw she had it wrong way around, I turned it and showed her and the group of staff that it was a belly dancer's belt. I tied it on. Then grabbed some scarves from the wall. They were nervously trying to stop me and I ignored them. I turned on the music and showed them how you could spin (it's an actual belly-dance step) w...