Wonder Mirrors

(Dream from September 2004)
One night I spent all my time roaming around the neighborhood and house on IVY street.

No one had ever moved in following the end of our family owning it. The rooms were full of all our old things. The debris and mess from the last time we stayed in the house were still there, undisturbed.

We were trespassing but it didn't seem as if anyone would ever stop us. We found rooms of old and beautiful furniture.

"How did we ever think this was junk we could leave behind!" We said to each other.

We took away wonder mirrors and tables to decorate the new house on Church. It was so nice being back on Ivy with all of you again.

Then one afternoon I dreamt that Kepler's Bookstore was closing. Going out of business. I wept and cried and sobbed until I couldn't cry anymore and slowly gasped to a stop. Then I thought about how mean I was when I left Kepler's how I said bad things about them thought bad thoughts and I started crying again. I didn't mean it! I will always always love Kepler's. They invited me to help with the final sale. I spent the afternoon in bliss looking through all the lovely books.

Then we were at Genie's family estate in someplace like Texas or New Mexico. (I could really go into it because I spent several days there and walked around looking at people and houses. There were houses that were so beautiful, like sculptures or paintings, they had benches set across the street (a dirt road) so you could sit and admire them. There were farm houses of dusty worn women in print dresses hoping for a big change soon. There were primitive rituals with feathers and vikings and fire and drums on the main plaza. But these were just tourist things.)

It was a huge family gathering and we were a small little pod of family from Judy's side. I kept making social mistakes. Like if someone politely asked me if I would like this book (Hunter Thompson's autobiography) I said, "NO WAY. It isn't anything I am interested in. Boys who never grow up and drink and shoot and make other boys envious? NO I don't think so."

Then of course I realize that the proper response was yes, I love it, it is a perfect gift. Because that is what it was meant to be. It was the product of the loving but misguided shopping of Genie to get me a Christmas gift I would really like. And I had just taken a dump on her gift.

Whole dream goes that way. Me replying and acting the honest thoughts and wishes of my mind and then finding I have harmed and insulted my hosts. Too close to real life for comfort.

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