Free Floating Anxiety
Dreams that hurt Last night I had a dream that left me gasping for air. I woke up with a jolt and started to scream. I am feeling very afraid. Work is hard and uncertain. There is so much to do and so little time to get it done. The people I work for seem intent on setting us up for failure. There is no room for success. This is going to be a really scary hairy time. On top of that I keep thinking about the quality of my life. That I am now much closer to death than birth and what do I have to show for the years? I didn't do anything! I wish that it were clearer to me what to do now. I feel like I need to make one last determined surge towards rightness. Make an effort to make a difference. I don't want to die before I can say my life was well spent. The picture is of Death Valley after a very wet spring. The people in the picture are wading in water. That seems like a hopeful image, but it isn't. It is an image that doesn't parse, it isn't right for there to be w...